me as a lil pile of ashes

burnt out... @_@

I think I am pretty creatively and mentally burnt out. At least, that's what I'm finally starting to think. There's a lot of different things contributing to it; having to execute that big move to Washington, getting used to living here, current events, job searching, reckoning with my messy anxiety problems and trauma and blehhhhh. I'm a lot better now than I was six months ago but there's still a lot of work to do. Trying to cut myself slack is really hard to do. I like to overwork myself so that I can help out as much as I can. Can't do that forever though, it'll bite me eventually. Hell, it's starting to bite me now. Hopefully, these anxiety meds that I've started recently will help out and make things a little easier.

I dunno, I'm just a tired girl who's trying to meow and be silly. It's just dang hard to do stuff! wahhh, cries, bwehhh

I just gotta keep going, even if it is hard to. Really need to get back into reading more of my books, maybe I should focus in on that for a bit. Spend some time watching movies, perhaps. I'm making silly noises and getting distracted by things so maybe I'll end it here. In the next blog post, I will try to be more coherent and have this be less sad. meow meow meow